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September 30 Getting SavedI few months back, my friend watched an episode of "Soul of a Man," a TV show about DMX on BET. He recited a poem that was written from his heart. The spirit of God moved on her heart to fast for him, and she fasted for a day and a half, praying that God would just being to draw his heart, since know man can come to Christ, unless Christ draws him.
The other day, my friend found a magazine in the store, andadvertisd on the cover, was an interview with DMX. The first wuestion of the interview asked was how DMX was trying to become a Christian, and he asked how that was going. And his reply was how things weren't exactly as he expected but he is still gettign alot of help from. When I heard this, SO much joy filled me, and I couldn't help but shout. The only problem was that it was after three in the morning, and my parents were asleep. Naturally, I woke them up (big as I am shouting in the room right next to where they sleep) By the time I caught my self and went outside to finish my shout, they were already out their bedroom door asking what was going on, lol. I AM SOWWY! The joy of the Lord overtook me, and I couldn't help myself. DMX IS GETTING SAVED, Y'ALL. And even if he doesn't. My friend prayed that God would just draw his heart so he would begin opening doors, and God did just that. See, here, God can save ANYONE. DMX is known today as one of the most hardcore (corrupted) rappers around. And God is moving on his heart to be saved. God can save ANYONE!
Prayer, ohohohohoh prayer, prayer. it changes things! I know that prayer, oh prayer, it changes things. YES it changes things. September 28 I Have A Manipulative BrotherMy brother, Phillip, gets on my NERVES! MY LAST NERVES!!!!!!!! I am so tired of him having monopoly over the computer room like it's not public domain!!!! Phillip wants to act like he owns the computer and hog it all night when I asks for it, and then he junks up the room and leaves all his stuff in here! IT'S SO CRAMPED!!!! And I have to clean up after him? I don't think so. And he wanted to try to leave his bases in here to add to the clutter. I keep my musical stuff IN MY ROOM, because that's my domain. But he wanna leave all his stuff all over the house like he pays rent AND bills, AND THE MORTGAGE! That makes everyone else so uncomfortable! he's so inconsiderate. And when I confronted him on it, he had the nerve to hold a fist up to my face because I wouldn't let him put his basses back in the computer room. I had the perfect oppurtunity to knock his head up against the door post and put a dent in his head. He forgets I got a metal bat that I will not hesitate to use if he push me hard enough, and he keep pushing me, because he wants to push his selfishness on me, and try to manipulate me with scare tactics. I AM HIS OLDER BROTHER. But because we was raised as twins, he don't never see that. And tries to run over me. I am so sick of that, Uncle Lawrence. I CAN"T WAIT TO GET MY LAP TOP. but I know even still after that, we will still have problems, because the boy is manipulative towards me AND Ma, Ma won't do nothing about it, and if he's confronted he tries to threaten me. I want to beat that out of him SO BAD but he too old for that. I wish I could put him in a situation where he couldn't manipulate ANYONE, and he would learn once and for all to work with people, compromise, and stop being so doggone inconsiderate all the time! I come home, I got things to do, but he wanna stay on YouTube all night watching anime. And if I didn't hang over his head for ten minutes like I did, he would have never given me the computer!
I don't know how to deal with this boy.
Jesus help me deal with all the drama this boy causes in my life. I hate drama so much, you kow that. Help me DEAL! Show me how to handle it. I'm going to go pray. September 27 I love God, SO muchI will serve you, because I love you. You have given life to me. I was nothing until you found me. You have given life to me. Heart ache, broken pieces, ruined lives are why you died on Calvary. Your touch is what I long for. You have given life to me.
That song so applies, right now. Now I know why the spirit gave me this song last night when I was doing the dishes.
Just yesterday, i was depressed about things i had done and dumb decisions i'd made in my past. And look at the words God gives this minister who's mailing list I'm on. God was thinking about me! He loved me enough to reassure me that he is on MY side! this is why I love God so much. he's so sovereign, becaause he can give a minister who lives in texas words just for me! How great is that?!?! i will NEVER cease to give God praise for his goodness. Look at this minister's encouraging words.
God I thank you for your sovereignity! September 26 No more workstudy/My Aweful LifeWell, I found out that my work-study was canceled on me. becuase I got a tuition waiver, (my father works at Northeastern) and so I am now officially ineligible for work-study. And I was confused because I had it last year. Well, I wasn't suppose to. i was a delinquent last year and the school never caught up with me. My loan is no longer need based, so I pay interest on it. Well, i want the loan, just less of it. So when it is dispersed, I will have it lowered next semester, that way I won't have to send any of the money I got back to the school. That works for me. But now I am unemployed. I hope all the good jobs aren't gone. i really do. I miss my other job. I would rather deliver mail than anyone else. I am not seen. I like background jobs. Jobs where you don't really have to deal with people. I like being behind the scenes. Lord have mercy. And at Ruggles, today, I was lookign over my life. My life sucked. It is embarrassing. I have so many moments, that weren't necesarily sinful, but would still be things I wouldn't want to tell my children. I was praying, and saying "God, what is it about my life that my children can take and learn from to be better men and women? There's nothing out of my growing up that I can use to teach them something. i just want God to bring glory to my life, not for my purposes, but so my children can look at me and say, "That's my daddy!" Even as I tell them about my past, my growing up. I want my children to have a strong father, and so far, that is not so! I am praying that God makes me stronger in character, so I can pass that off to my children, the next generation of his servants, because as for me and MY house, we WILL serve the Lord. I feel like singing Standing. Standing. Standing on the promises of Christ, my saviour. Standing. Standing. I am standing on the promises of God. Hallelujah September 25 My Missing UncleI love you, I love you, I love yo, Lord, today! Because you cared for me in such a special way. That's why I praise you, I life you up, and I magnify your name. That's why my heart is filled with praise. I just felt like singing that. I'm rejoicing on the inside right now, because my Uncle had been missing since Friday. But we found him. He's in the hospital, recovering from a brutal beating. Y'all he was beat up for his perscription medicine, and they took his cell phone, too. What the heck?! They beat him within an inch of his life, and he's all incoherent in the hospital. I am praying for a quick recovery, so we can get the whole story in the flowing nature it should be in, instead of piece by piece like we are recieving it, now. I am just glad to know that my uncle is alright, mainly for my mother's sake. Because her heart starts acting up when she gets stressed, and I fear I'd end up losing my mother had my uncle been found dead. I knew he was alive when some strange dude picked up his cell phone. I don't know why. I just don't know of anyone getting killed over a cell phone. I was just reassured in my spirit that my uncle was alive. He might not have been perfectly well, but he's alive. Thank you, Jesus. Please pray the strength of his children, and my mother, aunts, and uncles. Now I feel like singing this Lord, you are good, and your mercy endures forever! People from every nation and tongue; from generation to generation, we worship you! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Funny ClassI want to learn the faking skills of other college students around me, for real!!! Listen up and I'll explain. In my incredibly pointless African American Studies class, we had to read (a friggin' book!) over the weekend. But I put it off when I found out we didn't hae to write anything on it. Well coem to find out, I was not the only one who put it off, and my professor decided to discuss it in groups in class today. Well therer was only a handful of students that actually read the material (what geeks lol), No one in my group read the material, accept one girl, who read it in another class, but remembered very little. When my professor came around to check up on us, it was amazing watching them make a discussion out of the one sentence that girl remembered. Of course the key was saying your piece, letting the professor ramble for like 5 minutes, and just nod in agreement. That was hilarious. When my professor left, I was like, "Y'all are FUNNY! i would have just told him I didn't read the material and be done with it." And when all the groups came together for a class discussion, two groups had the same question, after the first group spoke, the second group was like, "........well said!" The professor was like, "Thats it? nothing to add? You sure?" The whole class was DYING! we was cracking up. Class was so funny. I wish everyday was as funny as today was. lol September 22 Ground RulesHI! I'm Nathan. I had another blog page, but I moved, over here. And if you missed those, just so you know, I'M SAVED! I don't take no junk. lol. So anyway, right, I don't know how much I will be blogging. it might not be as much as my friend, Matt, but maybe not as little as I've been blogging on MySpace (slim to none). I just wanted to touch basis. Peace Much Love, |
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