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September 26 No more workstudy/My Aweful LifeWell, I found out that my work-study was canceled on me. becuase I got a tuition waiver, (my father works at Northeastern) and so I am now officially ineligible for work-study. And I was confused because I had it last year. Well, I wasn't suppose to. i was a delinquent last year and the school never caught up with me. My loan is no longer need based, so I pay interest on it. Well, i want the loan, just less of it. So when it is dispersed, I will have it lowered next semester, that way I won't have to send any of the money I got back to the school. That works for me. But now I am unemployed. I hope all the good jobs aren't gone. i really do. I miss my other job. I would rather deliver mail than anyone else. I am not seen. I like background jobs. Jobs where you don't really have to deal with people. I like being behind the scenes. Lord have mercy. And at Ruggles, today, I was lookign over my life. My life sucked. It is embarrassing. I have so many moments, that weren't necesarily sinful, but would still be things I wouldn't want to tell my children. I was praying, and saying "God, what is it about my life that my children can take and learn from to be better men and women? There's nothing out of my growing up that I can use to teach them something. i just want God to bring glory to my life, not for my purposes, but so my children can look at me and say, "That's my daddy!" Even as I tell them about my past, my growing up. I want my children to have a strong father, and so far, that is not so! I am praying that God makes me stronger in character, so I can pass that off to my children, the next generation of his servants, because as for me and MY house, we WILL serve the Lord. I feel like singing Standing. Standing. Standing on the promises of Christ, my saviour. Standing. Standing. I am standing on the promises of God. Hallelujah TrackbacksThe trackback URL for this entry is: http://bignatemcbc.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!CD3E28CD32D5D96C!143.trak Weblogs that reference this entry
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